To sacrifice a $1000 bursary I won that is supposed to go towards my schooling or to spend it on Nicaragua so I can actually go this year. Parents refuse to pay the full $1800 (I honestly didn't think they would:p they don't even want me to go in the first place haha, silly worriesome parents. There is no difference in me going now or me going next year when I'm a year older, it won't be any easier on them haha). Then I think I could convince them to lend me rest of the $800 and I'll pay them back when I get my summer job when I come back.
Should I do it?
I mean I'll still have juuust enough to cover my full second year at VIU if I start buying second hand books and cutting a couple corners next year when it comes to expenses...I think I will at least... I'm planning on paying for my entire schooling by myself though so I've gotta figure out these numbers before I just go spending that $1000.
Probably shouldn't be thinking about this at all right now though when I desperately need to be focusing on NOT failing my biology test tomorrow. But I can't help it! The idea of not having to be in Nanaimo for my 19th birthday is such a heavenly thought, and instead I'd be doing something positive for a community who needs my help! I'm still terrified of the food I'm going to have to eat and the brand new bugs I'm going to have to come face to face with... but of course I'm scared! It'll be something completely different then I've ever done! It's normal to feel scared and nervous about a brand new experience that is the complete opposite of my current comfy and safe little life.
Thursday shall be number crunching day/Getting ready for English presentation day.
Hopefully I can still even sign up for the trip....
So many things to do, so many choices to make, so little time.
