I give up,
english you win.
You beat me.
My crazy overly picky teacher,
you win as well.
Prepared to fail this presentation tomorrow.
Also prepared to make a complete fool of myself while presenting.
Woot.
Thank god it's only worth 10% of my grade...

Is it summer yet?

What do you want to be when you grow up?

My head hurts

Biology is the reason.

The cure to this headache?

Switching programs would be a good start.

 But I don't know what I want to do!!!

My head is still wrapped around that insane idea of wanting to be a Pediatrician.But am I really smart enough to do that? I'm not so sure anymore. Am I willing to give up a good portion of my life dedicated to that? I don't know :( Would I love the actual job? Yah, I think I would..I think... It's mainly just the schooling...oh my god, looking at the hell I would have to go through It has me asking, is it really worth it? Am I actually capable of getting those grades?!?! Which led me to this web on a panicked google search
 

Honestly

 

 I have this secret dream (more like a fairytale)

Of moving to Dublin and busking on Grafton Street,

Travelling Europe,

Going on adventures,

Singing my life away with other musicians,

Writing stories.

Sounds so lovely doesn't it?

Yet here I am.

On a beautiful Sunday afternoon

Trying to learn the different stages of mitosis and meiosis in aggrivating detail.

Sigh...

In total, I have NO idea what I want to do with the rest of my life... maybe I'll end up teaching calculus, maybe my Dublin dream will come true, maybe I'll become a pediatrician, maybe I'll be an investigator for crime units, maybe I'll be a famous soccer player, or maybe I'll just end up being a hermit who reads books all day and stares at the ocean.

The last one sounds the most plausible at this point.

Personally I think it's too big of a question to ask someone that's not even out of their teens yet.

Time to go for another run.

I MADE IT THROUGH THE DAY! :D

I did iiiit!
Impossible English midterm that NO ONE in my class completely finished = done

Extremely hard bio midterm that even the smart kids in my class found hard = done
Caculus quiz that I spent zero time studying for and didn't even know what it was based on = done
Soccer practice with my poor naive coach who still has faith in us... ps you're the best = done
Soccer intramurals with the most awkward person who I thought I would never have to see ever again in my life let alone play on the same team as with him (hint to people reading:prom night) = done

Exhausted yet feeling accomplished. Also a little upset though because my bio lab partner said they might be dropping the class...wah, I miss you already :(

Writing blog posts still feels funny to me...not really sure how to set them up or what to say. Which is why all of them have been pretty much replays of my day haha, i'll get better at this eventually :p

Sun, Studying, Smiling, Stress

For a person with an english and bio lecture midterm tomrrow, and a calc quiz on top of that, and an overly large amount of material to still cram into my head by tomorrow due to darn procrastination; I'm in an extremely joyous mood! Tuesdays are my beautiful day off so I got to sleep in :D... HAH I wish. Instead I got up early (lame) to begin my day of studying. I'm pretty sure the number one reason why I've spent the entire day overly optimistic and not curled into a ball ready to rage quit, which is what usually happens the day before a midterm let alone two in the same day, is due to how sunny it was today!

 

I even got to take a study break and go for a run :D trying to stay in shape is hard with an overly large amount of homework haha oh well, it's not like my soccer team is winning, so therefore I don't feel too bad about not being in very good shape.

 

Hi ho hi ho
back to studying I go