What do you want to be when you grow up?

My head hurts

Biology is the reason.

The cure to this headache?

Switching programs would be a good start.

 But I don't know what I want to do!!!

My head is still wrapped around that insane idea of wanting to be a Pediatrician.But am I really smart enough to do that? I'm not so sure anymore. Am I willing to give up a good portion of my life dedicated to that? I don't know :( Would I love the actual job? Yah, I think I would..I think... It's mainly just the schooling...oh my god, looking at the hell I would have to go through It has me asking, is it really worth it? Am I actually capable of getting those grades?!?! Which led me to this web on a panicked google search
 

Honestly

 

 I have this secret dream (more like a fairytale)

Of moving to Dublin and busking on Grafton Street,

Travelling Europe,

Going on adventures,

Singing my life away with other musicians,

Writing stories.

Sounds so lovely doesn't it?

Yet here I am.

On a beautiful Sunday afternoon

Trying to learn the different stages of mitosis and meiosis in aggrivating detail.

Sigh...

In total, I have NO idea what I want to do with the rest of my life... maybe I'll end up teaching calculus, maybe my Dublin dream will come true, maybe I'll become a pediatrician, maybe I'll be an investigator for crime units, maybe I'll be a famous soccer player, or maybe I'll just end up being a hermit who reads books all day and stares at the ocean.

The last one sounds the most plausible at this point.

Personally I think it's too big of a question to ask someone that's not even out of their teens yet.

Time to go for another run.