Before I leave

What I want to do before I leave for Nicaragua Wednesday

1) Learn a couple new songs on my guitar (this'll take up a LOOOT of time...I'm a slow learner haha)
2) Read some books
3) Download a ton of new music for my ipod
4) Watch some FRIENDS episodes
5) Lay in my  bed and just stare at the ceiling in complete peace

What I'm actually doing

1) Running around making sure I have everything I need before I leave
2) packing
3) and a little more packing
4) and some re-packing
5) Avoiding hanging out with people do to the fact that now that school is over I really just want to turn off the extrovert side of me and go completely introvert for a while. I'm a true introvert at heart. I love being alone in my own space of peace and quiet just reading as many books as my soul desires.
6) Having naps while avoiding people
7) aaaannddd more PACKING! (wooo...not)
8) Getting forced to go for a weekend trip to go see my family (it actually wasn't that bad... I just really hate going to the old folks home to visit my papa. It brings back all my worst nightmares and I... I just feel really uncomfortable going there)
9) Coaching a soccer practice
10) Going to an eye doctors eyepointment.. joy
11) and back to packing.... it.never.ENDS.

Don't get me wrong, I love seeing/hanging out with my really close friends and I would like to see them...but come on people. I'll only be gone for two weeks for goodness sakes! I can see all of you guys when I get back and at least when you see me then I'll have something more to talk about other then "yah I'm so stoked! But I'm also really nervous, but omg so stoked!". Why are people who I haven't even talked to for like a year asking to see me before I leave?! This is getting ridic. (I feel like such a greedy little spoiled bitc...I mean brat... saying that but really guys? really?!)

I just wanna be like my introvert child-like self for a couple days and not talk to any one and just read my books. 
Now really is that such a crime?
No! I don't think so!




.....So why do I feel so terrible for avoiding people asking me to hangout.....